my most most most fav ghazal......(chitra singh)

Dard Badhkar Fughan Na Ho Jaaye

Ye Zameen Aasmaan Na Ho Jaaye

Dil Mein Dooba Hua Jo Nashtar Hai''

Mere Dil Ki Zubaan Na Ho Jaaye

Dil Ko Le Leejiye Jo Lena Hai

Fir Ye Sauda Garan Na Ho Jaaye

Aah Kije Magar Latif Tabhi

Lab Tak Aakar Dhuaan Na Ho Jaaye

wedding!!

Yesterday i attended a wedding reception..actually i didn't know the bride nor the groom...... i didn't even know the bride`s nor the groom`s parents very well...then how did i get the invitation? and why did i go for the wedding...?

i don't have to cook today!

whn i went there ...oh! wat a crowd...........i think all the women had the same idea as me....anyway...as i proceeded to have a look at the bride and groom (they looked cleverly madeup!).....i thought... should i go and wish them? ..i dont know them and i would have to give a long introduction about myself....i decided against it...they dont deserve this on their wedding day...............since it was an arranged marriage , the easy compatiablity that one sees on a couples face who know each other was missing.............. i could see the varied emotions writ on their faces ...the girl looked nervous (no doubt thinking of the night ahead )and the groom looked triumphant.....

i then proceed towards the banquet hall where food and drinks were being served...i saw the men running towards the bar...and the women rushing toward the buffet table...

hmmmm the food sure looked good..... biryani,butter chicken, fish moilee, tandoori kebabs, noodles, chaat,salads,ice cream,the counter seemed endless....

ok...so this is wat the groom`s father wanted to show off...his wealth....or maybe the dowry that he must have managed to get from the brides family....( the brides family must have given it willingly too!)

when i reached my turn at the buffet...i grabbed some food and tried to find someone to talk to....

but evryone was in the process of eating..(.i think everyone just wanted to eat and go home.)..after i finished ..............i peeked at the new couple..there was a long queue of people waiting to wish the couple................ i tired to locate the groom`s Father but couldn't, with all the din and crowd and heat...i just wanted to get back home....and that's what i did.....

so thts how my whole evening was spoiled..i dunno what i ate....felt miserable the whole time...and....forgot to give the present i had taken,

now never ...never will i go for a wedding to save myself some cooking............

hmmmmmmmmmm there are no free lunches.....only headaches....later.....

Sing me a Song!!!!!!

Sing me a song, A song you and I know,

A song that will put me to sleep,

This song that I always listen to makes me cry,

Missing you with every inch on my heart,

Knowing that you will not return,

Sing me a song,

A song that will help me forget about you,

A song that will heal my heart,

A song of forgiveness,

Just sing a song,

A song that can not be forgotten,

A song so memorable,

Only a memory,

Sing me song, A song that we will love,

A song we can not live with out, Just sing me a song,

A song that only you and I know.

The Stone Age

Fond husband, ancient settler in the mind,

Old fat spider, weaving webs of bewilderment, Be kind.

You turn me into a bird of stone,

a granite Dove, you build round me a shabby room,

And stroke my pitted face absent-mindedly while You read.

With loud talk you bruise my pre-morning sleep,

You stick a finger into my dreaming eye.

And Yet, on daydreams, strong men cast their shadows, they sink Like white suns in the swell of my Dravidian blood,

Secretly flow the drains beneath sacred cities. When you leave, I drive my blue battered car Along the bluer sea.

I run up the forty Noisy steps to knock at another's door.

Through peep-holes, the neighbours watch, they watch me come And go like rain.

Ask me, everybody, ask me What he sees in me, ask me why he is called a lion,

A libertine, ask me why his hand sways like a hooded snake Before it clasps my pubis.

Ask me why like A great tree, felled, he slumps against my breasts, And sleeps.

Ask me why life is short

and love is Shorter still,

ask me what is bliss and what its price....

MY TWINSOUL....

.....Music, poems, stories,emotions,feelings,amazement,wonder,happiness, bliss....
together at the right time, at the right place exactly when u need it....
to help u believe in yourself, in your true, pure self....
to love u unconditionally, to accept you, to not jugde you....
to compliment you , to soothe you , to inquire about you...
to calm you, to guide you, to care, to bring a smile to your tired face....
I think Ive got it......MY TWIN SOUL........HELLO!!

The Island!!!!

A beautiful circle....in the middle of a city.....

of plants, trees, people.....people who love solitude came alone.....

we were two..but actually one...happy in our aloneness...knowing very well we could be together and still be alone....

do u remember?

the earth that smelled so sweet....the soil that stuck to our clothes....wanting us to come back ...again...and again.....

which we did..

do u remember? the relief of lying down....on the grass.....

just to be able to rest our backs and tired legs...

the amazement of finding such a place.....in a city like ours...

do u remember the last time we met....

we spoke of dreams,of connections, of life, of beauty.....

so much has happened since then....

so much.....

but Ive not found anyone yet....

to go with to the island...

maybe i wont find....

the island waits for us...ITS OUR SECRET.....

it beckons us

will it find us there again? thats the question it asks......

i dont know what to say.....

forgive!

To forgive but not forget is a double edged sword

you can't excuse their actions ,then never let them live it down!

we think it makes us stronger

we won't be hurt again,

but in fact we only hurt ourselves and drive ourselves insane

if you can't move on from actions taken

be the one to take the blame, for we ourselves will make mistakes

there's no rules in this game

fear not the one inflicted with pain

but the bearer of the burden

is the one who can't forgive himself

for causing all your hurting

when reality comes in through the backdoor.......

Its so easy to live in a world of fantasy...of make believe....in ignorance...

The sense of mystery that every man craves for is soooooo important

when the mystery comes into your home., into your life...u no longer want to solve it...

Its then difficult...

to recognise your fantasy, your fun, the lies........

u rather run away...... u find faults...thers no more time!!!!!......

u have to find a another MYSTERY, another pack of lies!

For me, Ive always wanted to face life head on....to understand my reality..

I know theres only that much that I have to offer,

but what I have is precious beyond anything in this world....

I hold a treasure in my heart.....

and I have an ignited mind......

I feel free and happy....I feel bliss.....

but I am not a mystery,

Im open now....Im unmasked....naked....

I dont want to play the game...

I dont want to be ignorant any more.....

I want my reality to come to me from the front door......and embrace me..

as Im ready now.....

ready as never before!!!!!