i believe this....but...i go crazy sometimes.....thinking abt the future,,

"It doesn't matter what you do for a living...

..It doesn't matter how old you are...

..It doesn't matter what planets are squaring your moon...

...What matters is if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human..."

- from "The Invitation" by Oriah Mountain Dreamer

wat i am feeling now....

Im happy today....in heaven... then why am i so sad?

what I need to do............... is let go...

and enjoy what is left of my life....

God!..life is so beautiful....If I allow it.....

and I think about the future and cry........cry and cry..........

I know nothng last for ever....thts my practical and intelligent brain talking...

but my heart............how will I mend it... my broken heart... just tell me...