im free...

I'm free in my mind..... my mind was cluttered......( Osho told me a story, He helped me..I will write it later.....)
my upbringing,
my sensibilities,
my thinking....
my intelligence
are all many times a contradiction to what i am living.....its ok ...im human i live and learn .i make mistakes.....i never say never..the possiblities are endless.... ive numerous options....
but now I'm free.....
i am emotional , but i don't have to be so....i don't have to open my heart to everyone...
i should know by now, that people can lie....they can twist the truth.......so why should i be shocked.....why should i be hurt?
Ive realised that I don't want anybody to plan my life for me....
they will do what they think is best....
but i should continue with my plan...
i should remember that i had a plan and i should do that........
and the best thing is that Ive not told anybody about it....
i can work towards it and tell the people i care about when i feel it necessary.....
Darling, Rosh.....this is new to you...this feeling is new....so don't lose your perspective.. don't lose your focus... you are the best.....you can do it....you are strong and dependable ...you can do it just right....
you have to kiss a lot of toads till you find your prince...life is like that.........an adventure....a surprise...... a mystery.....it reveals all slowly.....wonderful!