why?

Even as I  am writing this, my friend is getting married.
and I didn't go for her wedding.
From the time she told me about her impending marriage,
I was feeling lost.
She was so into all the finery,the wedding clothes, the gold, the salary of her husband and his big  bungalow....
I was thinking that is this what marriage is all about?
I don't know, why but I was really surprised that she didn't think
anything about the real reason for getting married.
People get married for many reasons....
Number one reason people get married is because its the right time and they are the right age...
and then they regret, it for their whole lives.....
isn't companionship, love, friendship and other emotions important?

the past, the present and the future...

The year 2010 has almost come to an end.
the year ... as humans count it has ended...
but our struggle as human beings never ends...
life is a constant struggle... and is never ending.....
I want to find happiness in what ever I am doing....
but I seem to have come to  a crossroad..
I need to chose the path I need to follow...
the path that will make me whole...
the path that will make me content...
where is that path?
is it the path of never ending struggle???
oh,, I dont know...

again?

why do i feel so lost,
why is it that i feel so alone?
where has all the excitement gone?
where is the desire to live and love?
my heart is torn into two.....one part is here and one is there....
can one live half-heartedly?
i yearn for your voice...
for your touch...
can u see me in yr minds eye?
can u see the joy and glow on my face, as i lived with you , in you?
the completeness of our souls  as we sang songs, danced and laughed deeply?
dont u want it to happen again and again?