being on a hook...

Im waiting,....
on a hook.. like a little worm..
drop me please...
and let me swim, away from you....
enough of  your  false hopes,
and contradictions.....
just let me go....
leave me alone and forget me...
I am useless now, to you,
I am spent...
look for another worm...to get you more fish.....

where has it all gone.

There is so much love and struggle
there is so much honesty and appreciation
but, where is the happiness  and the smile?
when will it all come back?
will it come back?
ever?
the only thing certain is death....
everything else is uncertain and subject to change....
EVERYTHING....
ALL....
NOTHING LASTS FOR EVER......

New Year Resolution...

 Love is kind, and patient...

This is what the Bible says..

I tried to do this...

I was  being kind , patient and appreciative of the people in my life...

I was doing what the Bible told me...

BUT.....

I realise  that the people to whom  I was being the embodiment of love did not deserve my love..

I was not being AUTHENTIC...

I was not being my real self....

My real self is a happy self, where there is reciprocation of feelings

I deserve the best..

. 

I CANT SETTLE FOR NOTHING BUT THE BEST!

If  I feel I am  being undervalued, unappreciated , 

and feel that  my needs are not respected and met....

I should ask myself  the following questions.

1. is this relationship working for me?

2 am I happy being kind patient and appreciative?

3. what am I appreciating?

4. can I take being not in connection ?

5.do I like an overdose of silence?

6 where is my self respect?
7. can i respect a person who doesn't respect me?