October 2010 -October 2011

Sweet October,
you come with so much hope..
the autumn that turns into
lovely winter and then spring again...
life is such...
hope, is what makes life bearable...
and change is what is constant...
can love change its colours?
can love be constant?

NPD....

 I never never knew that NPD is a major  personality disorder and i am shocked that I that so many people are suffering from this .The worst part is that they dont know what to do and how to get help......
 
Song of the Male Narcissist

When I said that I would leave you
I meant "Don't let me go"
and instead of saying yes to you
I said - I'll let you know

I put myself above you
so you'd think me some great prize
and blamed my faults upon you
all because of my false pride

So I know you have good reason
for complaining like you do
because I never really thought of you
just 'to mine own ego' was I true 
But the truth is I'm embarrassed
for how badly I've behaved
and for being such a coward
I really am ashamed

Cause I don't want you to guess
how helpless that I feel
and that I don't know how to save you
even though my love is real

There is so much I have to learn
and if you're needing proof
just look at how I twist and turn
and struggle with the truth

I cannot be your hero
and I don't always understand
and really I just want you to see
the child within this man

I'm so scared that you will leave me
when you see my acts a sham
and that I gave up long ago
on being loved for who I am

I need a guiding hand in life
and need you to be strong
I need you to be virtuous
and let me tag along 


Set me goals I can accomplish
and praise me where you can
not for the act - just for the steps
I take to become a man

Cause I still have tantrums like a baby
and think I must get my way
and I don't know how to listen
and I haven't learned to pray

So love and please don't leave me
and help me learn to get along,
but stop crying and getting angry
cause it's really you who's strong

To make me feel bad won't change things
cause I'm already wracked with shame.
and sometimes you must say "no" for me
and kindly say my name

and if I'm being brutish
you must make me face the law
You must show concern with courage
if you want my heart to thaw

Cause I won't respect a victim
and you won't beat me at that game
and if you really want to tame me
you can't be scared of public shame

Cause it will take men with integrity
that I squarely have to face
you see I'm craving a strong father
and you'll never take his place

And I'm trying hard to trust you
which I don't know how to do
and I hope you can forgive me
and I hope that we're not through 


courtesy:http://www.narcissismdailymirror.com/2009/11/blog-post.html

past present and future..

Past ,Present and Future are all connected.....
What is time? Can one really define it?
Our life on this earth, is limited... but.. our energy lives on... the more we concentrate on little things, the more happy. we can be.......  it is the  opposite of what is taught to us...

We are told to ignore the little things and concentrate on the bigger scheme of things.... but are we really equipped to understand the bigger things that happen on this universe????
as we learn and live we realise how little we really are... how small and invisible our life is......this concept  is something that I understood  recently.....

The secret to living fully and blissfully is to understand that small kindness, play a very important role in our lives....hurting others, by words or deeds, will always boomerang.....

Love and  forgiveness will help us to live a stress free life..

 “hulu neger le bego new”,