those eyes.....

ive been told my eyes are expressive...
but his....are exceptional.!!!!!..
ive seen it twinkle...when he teases me mercilessly..
ive seen kindness and understanding....when he talks to kids and elders....
firey anger.....when work doesnt get done....
pleasure....whe he eats something delicious....
intoxication..... when he drinks a drink too many...
pain..... when....he listens to peoples terrible experiences....
last time we met ...i saw tears....in those lovely, liquid eyes....
of frustration, of oppurtunities lost....
that one drop..one drop.... one..tear drop.....represented an ocean inside......
lord! i want to know about that ocean....

ghazal

socha nahi ,accha bura...
dekha suna, kuch bhi nahi.......
manga khuda se raat, dhin,
tere seewa... kuch bhi nahi...

jis, par hamari aankh, ne moti bechayi raat bhar...
baeja wahi kaagaz uuse
humne likha kuch bhi nahi...

ek shaam ke dehlez per baithe rahe
woh daaer ak
aankhon se ki baatein bahut
muh se kaha
kuch bhi nahi....

HIS..... STORY...

I met S, ten years ago.... when, both of us, had just started out ,as professionals, in the field of education....both of us were flowing with enthusiasm ...we needed to change the education system... do this... do that.... do everything.......


S is a great looking guy.. light, liquid eyes.... strong features....articulate......we fought , argued.., expressed our feelings......


S and me took a liking for each other...it was instant.....a direct connection...


we met every other week in the begining......we discussed work.....how to change attitudes... students,..parents..their attitude......


one day S told me he was getting married... arranged... by his parents....


i was happy for him.... asked him .... what he was feeling..... S was silent...then he said ..`i dont know`.....hmmmm .......that was MY reaction...!


when i met S after his marraige, he was glowing...said was very happy with his life.... wife ...teacher...( that was his only condition... wife should be in the field of education.)


wow! i thought...God! i thought.... LET IT LAST ......


S got transfered to a godforsaken place..but was in contact.....letters.....telephone...


i met S at a seminar....... he was in bliss..... he had a daughter.........


everything ok....lifes been good.......i was in bliss ... listening to him....


met him again after 2 years...... blessed with a son... in joy......wow! life couldnt get better..


exactly after......one year.. ..i got a call.....sad...hardly sounded like S...


ya... its me...S? what? ya.... u can talk to me.....


son diagnosed with autisim.....daughter diagnosed with astigmatism......is there a God?


spoke for a long time.....


S`s wife suffers from a genetic mental retardation...which the family has/HAD kept secret and which S too had kept secret, when he found out just after they got married....a person with the kind of retardation that she has, cannot connect emotionally with anybody not even with own kids.....the person is very laid back... passive......non assertive...interested in only sly survival.....


now what?


S was lost........but he loved his wife he said........coz nobody could...and nobody had ever tired to understand her...


met S after another year.....he looked like.....wow! slim and new hair cut and wow!


what happened?.... i was amazed at the transformation.....


S told me he had met someone....at last .....whom he wanted to spend his life with.....


wow! ok... now what?


im geting a divorce he said.....


what about yr wife I said `u love her? dont u?`...ya.... divorce yes..will not leave M(his wife)


how ......can it be possible? i had my doubts........yes its possible....coz he andT( his love) have discussed it at length and theres no way they r going to leave M with 2 kids to fend for herself......


Wow! can it be true.....can there be such unconditional love....can u take on society...yr colleagues.... yr kids...?yr parents?


yes he said`i love M shes innocent...shes a human being....nobody wants her..she needs me......`


`salutes to u `i said...


S called me yesterday told me he has a new baby boy.....


i went to meet his family.....


S, M, T, 3 kids.....each......differrently challenged........


i loved them all...am dazed.........speechless!

unconditional love.....

last sunday we spoke about unconditional love.....
is it possible? how many have experienced it?


to be continued with real discussions.........

my song

The town lit up the world got still

Im learning to fly but I aint got wings
Comin down is the hardest thing

Well the good old days may not return
And the rocks might melt, and the sea may burn

Im learning to fly but I aint got wings
Comin down is the hardest thing

Well some say life will beat you down
Break your heart, steal your crown
So I started out for God knows where
But I guess Ill know when I get there

Im learning to fly around the clouds
But what goes up must come down

Im learning to fly but I aint got wings
Comin down is the hardest thing
Im learning to fly around the clouds
But what goes up must come down

Im learning to fly
Im learning to fly

silence......

Sometimes silence conveys emotions that words fail to ...


Silence can be a sign of consent.

Silence conveys anger.

Silence demonstrates strength.

Silence demonstrates patience.

Silence conveys determination.

Silence can mean respect.



Silence does not mean inaction



Silence may indicate forgiveness.



Silence represents tolerance.



Silence can mean confidence.


Silence is not necessarily a sign of guilt or weakness, it is in many cases lot more thought provoking and convincing than words …

a flower

A little seed breaks into roots and shoots,
the root breaks,..
into thousands more....
the shoot into stem, branches and thousands more....
nestled in the bed, of new soft, velvety leaves,
the bud,
the little bud,
waits,
pregnant,
with colour, life, beauty.....
to break into a flower.... and to never break again...!!!!!
a flower......
my heart is a flower...!!!!!!!!!!