love me tender......

Love Me Now
If you are ever going to love me,

Love me now,

while I can know

The sweet and tender feelings,

Which from true affections flow.
Love me now

While I am living.

Do not wait until I'm gone

And then have it chiseled in marble

Sweet words on ice-cold stone.
If you have tender thoughts of me,

Please tell me now.

If you wait until I'm sleeping,

Never to awaken,

There will be death between us,

And I won't hear you then.
So, if you love me,

even a little bit,

Let me know it while I am living

So I can treasure it.

trust!

ive always wondered about trust and how much is too much......

there are some people with whom u can trust your life with.....( hopefully your life is precious to u) for me building trust is of utmost importance....i think its trust that takes a relationship forward.....without that perfect trust in your self and the other im sure the relationship will surely fail...
now, trust in what?

one of my many quirks!

Ive to confess that i hate to receive gifts......Ive become cynical about receiving gifts....Ive become distrustful of people who give me something/or offer to do some favour for me..
I wonder why? I wonder what has made me so silly?
what is it that i really fear?
i feel so obliged to do/give more and even out the favour........
sometimes i give away gifts(that Ive received) to other people....
i feel so terrible.... many a times, the gift....gets damaged...some how..and i don't use it then....i wonder why this happens.....is it an unconscious effort to not use the gift..... ?
i feel happy to use things that Ive bought with my hard earned cash.... and let me tell u, i love to give gifts...
why am i not a good receiver?

my most most most fav ghazal......(chitra singh)

Dard Badhkar Fughan Na Ho Jaaye

Ye Zameen Aasmaan Na Ho Jaaye

Dil Mein Dooba Hua Jo Nashtar Hai''

Mere Dil Ki Zubaan Na Ho Jaaye

Dil Ko Le Leejiye Jo Lena Hai

Fir Ye Sauda Garan Na Ho Jaaye

Aah Kije Magar Latif Tabhi

Lab Tak Aakar Dhuaan Na Ho Jaaye

wedding!!

Yesterday i attended a wedding reception..actually i didn't know the bride nor the groom...... i didn't even know the bride`s nor the groom`s parents very well...then how did i get the invitation? and why did i go for the wedding...?

i don't have to cook today!

whn i went there ...oh! wat a crowd...........i think all the women had the same idea as me....anyway...as i proceeded to have a look at the bride and groom (they looked cleverly madeup!).....i thought... should i go and wish them? ..i dont know them and i would have to give a long introduction about myself....i decided against it...they dont deserve this on their wedding day...............since it was an arranged marriage , the easy compatiablity that one sees on a couples face who know each other was missing.............. i could see the varied emotions writ on their faces ...the girl looked nervous (no doubt thinking of the night ahead )and the groom looked triumphant.....

i then proceed towards the banquet hall where food and drinks were being served...i saw the men running towards the bar...and the women rushing toward the buffet table...

hmmmm the food sure looked good..... biryani,butter chicken, fish moilee, tandoori kebabs, noodles, chaat,salads,ice cream,the counter seemed endless....

ok...so this is wat the groom`s father wanted to show off...his wealth....or maybe the dowry that he must have managed to get from the brides family....( the brides family must have given it willingly too!)

when i reached my turn at the buffet...i grabbed some food and tried to find someone to talk to....

but evryone was in the process of eating..(.i think everyone just wanted to eat and go home.)..after i finished ..............i peeked at the new couple..there was a long queue of people waiting to wish the couple................ i tired to locate the groom`s Father but couldn't, with all the din and crowd and heat...i just wanted to get back home....and that's what i did.....

so thts how my whole evening was spoiled..i dunno what i ate....felt miserable the whole time...and....forgot to give the present i had taken,

now never ...never will i go for a wedding to save myself some cooking............

hmmmmmmmmmm there are no free lunches.....only headaches....later.....

Sing me a Song!!!!!!

Sing me a song, A song you and I know,

A song that will put me to sleep,

This song that I always listen to makes me cry,

Missing you with every inch on my heart,

Knowing that you will not return,

Sing me a song,

A song that will help me forget about you,

A song that will heal my heart,

A song of forgiveness,

Just sing a song,

A song that can not be forgotten,

A song so memorable,

Only a memory,

Sing me song, A song that we will love,

A song we can not live with out, Just sing me a song,

A song that only you and I know.

The Stone Age

Fond husband, ancient settler in the mind,

Old fat spider, weaving webs of bewilderment, Be kind.

You turn me into a bird of stone,

a granite Dove, you build round me a shabby room,

And stroke my pitted face absent-mindedly while You read.

With loud talk you bruise my pre-morning sleep,

You stick a finger into my dreaming eye.

And Yet, on daydreams, strong men cast their shadows, they sink Like white suns in the swell of my Dravidian blood,

Secretly flow the drains beneath sacred cities. When you leave, I drive my blue battered car Along the bluer sea.

I run up the forty Noisy steps to knock at another's door.

Through peep-holes, the neighbours watch, they watch me come And go like rain.

Ask me, everybody, ask me What he sees in me, ask me why he is called a lion,

A libertine, ask me why his hand sways like a hooded snake Before it clasps my pubis.

Ask me why like A great tree, felled, he slumps against my breasts, And sleeps.

Ask me why life is short

and love is Shorter still,

ask me what is bliss and what its price....