the razai....

I love razai......the wonderful snugly feel of the razai.....during rainy season and winter ...or when its hot... u put the AC on and snuggle into this wonderful Jaipuri quilt....if u have a lover its great.....u can make love in it..... and cuddle afterwards...wow!!!!

being under anesthesia again....

Yesterday, I was under general anesthesia again....
The thing I like about it the best is that, how u feel sleepy slowly slowly and then you are out... u have lost 4 hours of your life.... u know nothing.... feel nothing...its like being dead .....only thing is that u wake up....later....
I wonder what happens to the brain at that time....
Ive always wondered what happens when we die.....is there a soul???A SPIRIT????
i know of course, that there is no heaven or hell as we perceive it....
we will become food for worms...manure for earth.....after we die....
but the spirit of the human being lives for ever..its essence, its reality, its smile....the remembrance, the memories of the person remains for ever....so i believe that we HAVE to do good work help other human beings to make our spirit happy.....to be essentially happy.....
so lets do it Baby!!!!!!lets make it happen....

you know its true................

There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way

10th Sept 2009

World Suicide Prevention Day
09, Sept 10th at Bhavan's auditorium,
Andheri(w), Mumbai

The summary of the seminar


SUICIDE IS PREVENTABLE

Causes of suicide: During the last three decades we have learned a great deal about the causes of this complex behavior. Suicide has biological, cultural, social and psychological risk factors. People from socially and economically disadvantaged backgrounds are at increased risk of suicidal behaviour.
Childhood adversity and trauma, and various life stresses as an adult influence risks of suicidal behaviour.
Serious mental illnesses, most commonly depression, substance abuse, anxiety disorders and schizophrenia, are associated with increased risk of suicide.
Diminished social interaction increases suicide risk, particularly among adults and older adults. the pyschology of suicide victim is not so easy to figure out.
The real reason for a suicide may be different from the immediate spark that propels a person to take his life. "It is only when a person has lost all hopes of being able to cope up with the reality that he takes his life,"
Suicide can be prevented. Despite its often complex origins, suicide can be prevented.

why?

Tell me why do u love me???

its difficult...

Ive always craved for a love relationship...
its an emotion that Ive wanted in my life...
to belong to someone completely,
to have someone in my life who knows my needs, my moods,
who loves me for what i am...
someone who doesnt want to change me..
someone who loves me for what i am...
someone who appreciates my efforts , my qualities...
who sees beauty in me...
Then when Ive found it why am i so frustrated???
why???
why all these questions????in my head...???am i not sure then???of this love?
why am i afraid of this love???why is it difficult??

TO BREAK FREE

The time is right....
to move on.... I don't want to use anyone, I don't to do things because of anyone...
I want to do things, because, I feel it.. because it is the best thing...
because Ive to be free... to live, to breathe..I cant live like this anymore....