For Your Information.....

Dear friends,

This creature called Roshni, who writes on this blogspace is bored with her own blog....

it happens to her often....she hates monotony....and this blog is really getting boring because its all about some bullshit called TRUE LOVE......

She hates herself for being so obsessed with it...

So, she is going to give herself a break.....

she has to find something else to do..

her ruminations are on...

she has put on her thinking cap...

her self expression has to be done in a different way....shes offf to explore new ideas....

so seeya for now....

some good things about me...

1. I'm basically a happy person.

2. I can be crazy as and when the situation demands.

3. I adjust and adapt to situations...

4. I'm good with people.

5. I'm good with kids.

6. I'm good with old people..

7.I love nature, sea, plants trees, animals.

8.I'm a great cook.

9.I know style, and colour and what goes with what.

10.I'm clean, tidy and organised person.

11.I give my 100% to whatever I do.

12.I love deeply, truly and madly.

13.I'm care giver.

14. I'm good with money.

15. I'm good to take spot decisions.

(and if You have anything to add please do!)

This is what i know about myself, but it does not guarantee that I will find true love.....

If you want to find the elusive element in your life...that something that is missing in your life..that passion, that madness, that intensity.....that partner who wants you forever..you have to have more than this.... more and more... expectations are more.....

I don't have that......................

so?

I'm NEVER NEVER GOING TO HAVE THAT SPECIAL THING.......THAT ETERNAL LOVE....THAT FOREVER LOVE....

The question is, whether I need it.....

yes I do..I DO....

but can I live without it?

no.....I can exist..... like a thing.....but.. cant live.....NO!

wat i am feeling now....

At this point of time......

I feel useless....ABSOLUTELY USELESS......

IM NOT USEFUL FOR LOVE..............

now and then..........

This is me, 23rd Oct 2009... now... contaminated.......and adulterated.....(lol)

this is how i looked on 24th july 2009.....i was a simple, innocent, truthful person.......full of dreams... and hope and imaginations........

first time in a Mumbai pub.....

Frankly, it was my first time in a real Mumbai disc......( The time at another pub was so gentle as compared to the one yesterday...)I felt I was in GOA....

It was just Awesome....

I had decided that, I would enjoy and go crazy, and forget all woes...

and I did just that.....

I got high ( with 2 small bottles of beer, and I drank someone eles`s drink too ,I think!)

and I think I ate some munchies from someone else`s table).....

Unforgiveable!!!! but first time mistakes are forgiveable..... I forgive myself ...

anyway...It was fun..... I went crazy dancing my crazy dance....

The Hindi music was reallly fun ... all old hits......

I am a disco dancer, etc etc....

Overall a CRAZYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY night!!!!!!!!!!!!

notting hill...

oh! I love this movie....its so sweet........ can watch it many times....I love Hugh Grant in this movie..the sweet loyal man in love....the comedy is so refreshing and original...

This is my fav song from the movie...

WHEN YOU SAY NOTHING AT ALL.......

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing

The smile on your face let's me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
Try as they may they can never define
What's being said between your heart and mine

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NhuTL-rtQa8

btw, that's the best scene of the movie......

my thoughts .....on issues...

Ok , So I was at my favourite place..THE GRASS.... JUST MAKES ME SO CALM......

everything was ok ..but...I hated it when the nurse hit the child who ate some extra sweets....

and scolded me for being indulgent....

I was thinking of the difference.... whn I was a team member and I could do as I wished.....

now im not.. Im just a volunteer...

I hate this bureaucracy...

the silly rules.....restrictions....

I wish I had my own organisation, my own rules, my own kids...........

butIi know Im complaining, and I will go back again and again and again.... love will pull me towards them.......Im helpless whn it comes to love....God! I love those kids....

will post more pics.....soon....