the last time we met.....

Do you know we all are going to die in some years ..

We will be under the soil...

and will grow into grass...

cows will eat us.....

life is so short.....

william blake.. his adam and eve...

Im reading a book COUPLES by John Updike..this pic is on its cover... and ive been so intrigued by this painting..... and then i found out that this was done by William Blake.. .wonderful....

dove....or is it love hanging by threads????

the dove.....seems to rush into fools paradise.....it feels like love...but its dove...........its image in another language....

For Your Information.....

Dear friends,

This creature called Roshni, who writes on this blogspace is bored with her own blog....

it happens to her often....she hates monotony....and this blog is really getting boring because its all about some bullshit called TRUE LOVE......

She hates herself for being so obsessed with it...

So, she is going to give herself a break.....

she has to find something else to do..

her ruminations are on...

she has put on her thinking cap...

her self expression has to be done in a different way....shes offf to explore new ideas....

so seeya for now....

some good things about me...

1. I'm basically a happy person.

2. I can be crazy as and when the situation demands.

3. I adjust and adapt to situations...

4. I'm good with people.

5. I'm good with kids.

6. I'm good with old people..

7.I love nature, sea, plants trees, animals.

8.I'm a great cook.

9.I know style, and colour and what goes with what.

10.I'm clean, tidy and organised person.

11.I give my 100% to whatever I do.

12.I love deeply, truly and madly.

13.I'm care giver.

14. I'm good with money.

15. I'm good to take spot decisions.

(and if You have anything to add please do!)

This is what i know about myself, but it does not guarantee that I will find true love.....

If you want to find the elusive element in your life...that something that is missing in your life..that passion, that madness, that intensity.....that partner who wants you forever..you have to have more than this.... more and more... expectations are more.....

I don't have that......................

so?

I'm NEVER NEVER GOING TO HAVE THAT SPECIAL THING.......THAT ETERNAL LOVE....THAT FOREVER LOVE....

The question is, whether I need it.....

yes I do..I DO....

but can I live without it?

no.....I can exist..... like a thing.....but.. cant live.....NO!

wat i am feeling now....

At this point of time......

I feel useless....ABSOLUTELY USELESS......

IM NOT USEFUL FOR LOVE..............

now and then..........

This is me, 23rd Oct 2009... now... contaminated.......and adulterated.....(lol)

this is how i looked on 24th july 2009.....i was a simple, innocent, truthful person.......full of dreams... and hope and imaginations........