henna...

The fading henna on my hands and feet,
 tells me a touching  story....
 the story of a wonderful world...
 a world full of love and emotion..
 a world of acceptance and innocence
 where happiness and contentment rules....
a place full of sunflowers  
a place where my soulmate resides
a place where I left my heart behind...

the untrodden path....

My Soul....

I feel lonely without YOU

I need you to be close to me...

I need your arms around me...

I need your presence....

The silence that we shared...

The deep conversations...

I miss everything

I miss you

I know its a difficult situation...

a difficult decision..

but we need to make it....

I want to come to you completely...

will  you  let me be with you...

forever????

the realisation

I'm visiting this place after a long time......
I  was not writing as I was experiencing.......
I was taking it all in...
I was silent ... I was living... I was inside myself...
I was trying to figure out myself....my emotions and why I do the things I do.....
I figured, I realised... I need to do things my way..............
my needs are few... but i need to have it fulfilled....
and I can do it by myself.....
hmmm..........
the silence teaches you tolerance,  it teaches you the meaning of this life....
it teaches you patience....
it teaches that you are as important as the other person....all human beings have same emotions..... all get hungry and angry we all feel  love, and need security and recognition.....
no one is more important than the other.....
all are equal ... differences are in the mind of the people.....

you and me...

There were so many  many people..in this world...
Why did we connect?
What was the need for us to meet...
Everything in this world happens for a reason...
Our meeting so full of serendipity..
so much confusion,
so many doubts,
so many complexes,
I wonder... why?
why? why?

the waiting..for my soul....my friend..

Life is a journey.............and its the realisation  that matters...
we go through so much in this life,
just to be in peace and happy within our selves..
I long for that...
your arms around me,
your eyes looking at me tenderly,
your kind voice in my ear,
you, touching my hair,
you, loving me with your soul..
the basic feelings of being truly in bliss
not just physically but inside your head, heart...
YOU  just know that this is it!
There is nothing more to life than being with one another...
each one gives the other strength to go on....with life..!

passive aggressive...

we know many passive people, and we know many aggressive people..
but I realise that many people are a combination of both and its a MAJOR PERSONALITY DISORDER!
they sugar coat their hostility and never show their true feelings..they trust no one...
and are mostly vindictive....

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Passive_aggressive

thinking aloud....

I truly believe that my fear to meet people head-on is decreasing.
I think everyone hates confrontation, i mean, who wants to bring out all the dirty linen?
I usually get intimidated easily, i cow down so that there can be peace.
anybody can shout me out...
I cant shout back.
I argue for some time,but then, i give up ..
I don't go through with most of my dreams.
I feel I may fail.
my argument is that , what difference does it  make?
if I do something or not? does it make a difference?
I really don't know?
I really need SUPPORT for everything...
why have I lost the faith in myself?
WHO did this to me?
I know I have pull myself together. Ive to stop reacting and STOP thinking what will people think..( it sounds so childish when I wrote that down?) am I really so foolish?
I have to find my boat...