hubbly bubbly

hmmmm! ..... tried this again......yesterday....

had a quiet dinner and took this Nargeela / Nargile / Narghile / Nargileh / Nagili / Arghili / Argili / Argilah / Argila / Arghila / Arghileh / Argeela / Sheesha / Shisha / Hookah / Hubble Bubble / Hubbla Bubbla / Okka / Kalayn / Water Pipe ........apple flavored smoke....surrrounded me....and i was in heaven....!!!!

am i valued???

Im a little worried about my mental health…………. I suffer from insomnia.
recently I read that insomnia is a symptom of depression….
Am I depressed? I think all of us get depressed, for some reason or the other in our life time….but we also learn to cope…those who don’t learn to cope….we all know, what happens to them…..
Am I depressed?
When i think about it …I think yes!.....am i coping with it….i thought I was doing fine….except for this damn sleeplessness…..
Now I feel I have to do something about it…..what is it that makes me depressed?....
The selfishness of humans( though, i know very well that humans are so frail)
I think everyone on this earth wants to be VALUED…..and when that doesn’t happen….there could be a lot of problems….when I think of problems…….. there r huge ones…on this earth….but I think each and everyone of these problems begin with this primary need of a human being…the need to be valued….
Am I not valued then?
I ve to think about this……

balcony gardening...

A few months ago as I was passing through a nursery, on an impulse, I bought a chilli sapling......

I watered it everyday I wanted to see if I had a green finger......and lo! I saw little leaves peeping ..I was so happy.....

I went out and brought 5 containers ......and some more saplings......

3 flowering plants..., mint and curry leaves.....

now, they all seem happy to be living in my home........ Ive brought manure and fertilizer........

I wake up and the first thing I do is look at my plantlings.......they smile at me.....

a few days ago, my neighbor gave me a cutting of bougainvillea....beautiful pink flowers....

I put it up ....and hope that it becomes thick foliage

I learned that she too is an enthusiast.....

nowadays we spend hours discussing how we can make our balcony interesting.......

wow! never thought i would be a gardener..

THE FORT

I stood at the gates with flowers in my ear....

waiting.......

knowing that it would happen....

the walk, with fifteen children....onto a fabled fort....

which was not a fort at all...it was HOPE

and HOPE we had in abundance....

we hitch-hiked, climbed trucks, huddled into unknown vehicles,

on that magical night.......

it was dark but our faces shone...radiant with secrets...

the unbearable excitement made the children sleepy.....

what an adventure!.....

they speak of it loudly even now,your name synonymous with mine!

we speak of it silently in our dreams.......

wats this...???

yes...ive felt it a number of times....the connection...the strong pull.....but can it happen with a person whom u hve never met?u dont even know how he looks like.....but u know he exists.....exists somewhere.... y am i so sure that i will meet him?

a simple question..

r we really free?

To know oneself is to know all. And that is the only thing I emphasize; no belief, no dogma, no creed, no church, no religion. By a simple process of inner observation you come to realize yourself... Truth is within – seek not elsewhere.-osho