the moon...........

The moon certainly makes everything beautiful.

On a full-moon night you see beauty spread all around, even to ordinary plants.

Ordinary flowers are shining with joy.

Small puddles of water are reflecting the full moon with as much depth as the greatest ocean.
So it does not matter which body you have;

whether man or woman, bird or animal;

whether you are poor or rich.

In a silent space, just watching the moon, you are filled with tremendous beauty.

That beauty arises in your innermost world.

The moon simply triggers it.

Dogen, The Zen Master:
A Search and a Fulfillment

tears like dew drops

when will eyelashes meet with eyelashes.........

its been a while since they met....

i know dear, tears flow.....

into a river of emotions...

but let it go.....

let your tears decorate my eyelashes

like dew drops on a thorn...

let all your sadness come and rest...

on my eyelashes...

im waiting.....waiting...will wait for ever.....

a difficult time

These days are difficult....
a time when I feel so alienated
I see my whole life playing in front of me....i can actually see me doing one thing and then another......and then another....again and again.....
and dont know whats the purpose of it
why am I here? what am I really supposed to do?
Im told everyone is doing it so i must do it too...
do what?
existing..!
working....eating......partying..boozing.....being high....is that living?
no time to breathe.... to sit calm..... to understand another human being...
isnt life supposed to be more than that?
just existing..???for shits sake...!!!!
doing what everyone is doing?
is not life about being...
being in sync with your soul.....
feeling bliss....
when will the business of have to exist end....???
when will i live...
when???when will everyone live.............

how i long to fly away from this maddening crowd.................help me.....help.......

a long time!!!

ive not written for a long time....

was so immersed in my own thing for a long time..........

feeling so sorry for myself

feling pity for my self

wallowing in being a victim....

being dependent

how i hate my self...

i feel ashamed...

RESUME`

Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp
.Guns aren't lawful;
Nooses give;
Gas smells awful;
You might as well live.

the self...

im important...thats important!!!!!! ........