looking for love

to find love,
we look too hard,
to accept love,
we doubt too much.....

When can I be me???

without being judged????

is it wrong to be in LOVE , to connect immediately to another human being who you feel will give you happiness?????


I don't believe in right or wrong..............

I only know what it is to be loved and to be rejected....

if you are loved you are happy and when u face rejection you feel sad.

a woman...

There is a woman who has inside her a FIRE.
to connect, without any expectations to another human being.
to give her ALL, without having to measure the amount of gives and takes.
to be able to make her world beautiful.

FIRE burns and destroys .... it also gives light and energy.
the woman thinks her FIRE is energy- giving
but life teaches her that her FIRE is self destroying.

Now, what should she do?
should she abandon her dream and continue living like a corpse?
should she take her dream and fly away?
this question has always been bothering her... shes asked herself a number of times....
why is she living???a life of farce, a lie? for society ? for what?
what is the use of living, if her soul is dead?
her spirit is broken?
there is no prosthetic for an injured soul is there?

My news...

I was 55 kgs. and now Im 63kgs.... so Ive put on 8 kgs. My ideal weight is 52 kgs. So im 11 kgs over weight.
I never much bothered about it...
but, now I feel I should make an effort...and do something about it...
from Monday, I will be gymming.
I used to gym but I left it after a bad experience.
but now Im going to be brave and start again....
I will achieve my ideal wt.
Ive given my self, three months....
Im determined and dedicated.
My friends!!!!! please help me... support me...
I know, Im a beautiful person inside,
now I want to be beautiful outside too...............

INTENSITY!!!

I'm sensitive, BUT more than that .... I'm intense....

There is intensity in everything I do....

I give my 100%....Ive to be completely into things.....

I don't do things in half measure, it has to be all or nothing....

I know people are afraid of intensity ... they feel crowded and bothered with so much of intense feelings..

but there is only one thing I say to them

TAKE ME OR LEAVE ME!!!

yesterday was yesterday and today is today...

yes... yesterday was a blissful day...
and today was sad, the tears came and stung my eyes....
why am i so insecure?
why do i need to be in connection?
I realize that its not easy for me to be so close and then so far removed...( whatsoever the reason may be)

is something wrong with me???
am i going crazy????
maybe its not very PRACTICAL to follow your heart....

THE MAGIK...

I believed in love and hope....
but never, never dreamed that it would happen to me...

its synchronicity...yes it is...
otherwise, how could have WE met?

Two lonely, bored human beings
waiting for something to happen....

Made complete by
a magic number

...lol...