wat i am feeling now....

At this point of time......

I feel useless....ABSOLUTELY USELESS......

IM NOT USEFUL FOR LOVE..............

now and then..........

This is me, 23rd Oct 2009... now... contaminated.......and adulterated.....(lol)

this is how i looked on 24th july 2009.....i was a simple, innocent, truthful person.......full of dreams... and hope and imaginations........

first time in a Mumbai pub.....

Frankly, it was my first time in a real Mumbai disc......( The time at another pub was so gentle as compared to the one yesterday...)I felt I was in GOA....

It was just Awesome....

I had decided that, I would enjoy and go crazy, and forget all woes...

and I did just that.....

I got high ( with 2 small bottles of beer, and I drank someone eles`s drink too ,I think!)

and I think I ate some munchies from someone else`s table).....

Unforgiveable!!!! but first time mistakes are forgiveable..... I forgive myself ...

anyway...It was fun..... I went crazy dancing my crazy dance....

The Hindi music was reallly fun ... all old hits......

I am a disco dancer, etc etc....

Overall a CRAZYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY night!!!!!!!!!!!!

notting hill...

oh! I love this movie....its so sweet........ can watch it many times....I love Hugh Grant in this movie..the sweet loyal man in love....the comedy is so refreshing and original...

This is my fav song from the movie...

WHEN YOU SAY NOTHING AT ALL.......

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing

The smile on your face let's me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
Try as they may they can never define
What's being said between your heart and mine

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NhuTL-rtQa8

btw, that's the best scene of the movie......

my thoughts .....on issues...

Ok , So I was at my favourite place..THE GRASS.... JUST MAKES ME SO CALM......

everything was ok ..but...I hated it when the nurse hit the child who ate some extra sweets....

and scolded me for being indulgent....

I was thinking of the difference.... whn I was a team member and I could do as I wished.....

now im not.. Im just a volunteer...

I hate this bureaucracy...

the silly rules.....restrictions....

I wish I had my own organisation, my own rules, my own kids...........

butIi know Im complaining, and I will go back again and again and again.... love will pull me towards them.......Im helpless whn it comes to love....God! I love those kids....

will post more pics.....soon....

the best day of my life.........

Jesus xrisst!.......wow! the best day of my life......
i now know that it is no use planning and planning AND PLANNING........
The best things in life come unexpectedly.....you should just have the guts to grab the happiness that is waiting for you.... sometimes it may not seem possible...but everything is possible if u have an open mind..............
i love my life.....its beautiful........thank you universe! for helping me connect through continents. ( lol)
btw, my first ever experience in a pub in my city was bitter sweet.....some shit..... but mostly beautiful...........
and im offf to more wonderful days.......
will post about it soon..........

ESSM.............

Alexander Pope's poem "Eloisa to Abelard"

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!

The world forgetting, by the world forgot

Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!

Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd.

Last night I couldn't sleep, and I watched my favourite movie again......

I had written about this movie somewhere earlier....

Wow! Kate Winslet and Jim Carrey in the roles of their life time...Excellent....

My favorite quotes of the movie,

Joel: talking isn't necessarily communicating.

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Clementine: This is it, Joel. It's going to be gone soon.
Joel: I know.
Clementine: What do we do?
Joel: Enjoy it.

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Clementine:What took you so long?
Joel: I just walked in.
Clementine: Do you miss me?
Joel: Oddly enough, I do!
Clementine: You said "I do" - I guess that means we're married!
Joel: I guess so!

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Joel:I had a really nice time last night.
Clementine: Nice?
Joel: I had the best fucking night of my entire fucking life, last night!
Clementine: Thaaaat's better!

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The movie deals with science fiction and neosurrealism.

It touches the heart and mind while taking you through varied emotions....

the end is of course the best, as we find that no matter, the differences and fights, if there is LOVE, understanding and Forgiveness.. that's all that matters....woowwwwwwwwwwwwww!

This gives me hope....