insecurities,

There are many ways in which insecurities manifest themselves.
one of them is fear..
mostly I'm not a fearful person...
im not afraid to be alone..
actually I love being with my self.
I know, I can live without human contact,
without speaking or any entertainment for days together
I can just BE.
And I know that it is a big thing.
but still the fear of being accepted doesn't go away.
some deep rooted insecuritites may be the reason.
being abandoned at an early age, maybe one of the reasons.
and being called ugly repeatedly....maybe another reason.
its true that what you have been called as a youngster stays with you.
you begin to feel that if more than 5 people call u a certain name, then u must be that..how can so many people be wrong???
but even though i know many things theoretically, I'm fearful that many things in theory look very good but in reality poses many problems.
I guess , I'm not good with people. I don`t seem to have any lasting relationships..
every time I feel I'm getting close to someone I run away.
its the fear of being hurt...i realize...but I cant help it...
I request all the people whom I know in actual life and virtual life to forgive me.....Its my way of protecting myself. I don`t know any other way.

becoming you....

you r not here,
but your presence like a sweet fragrance,
spreads around me,...
i close my eyes and u appear...
i touch you with my heart,,,,
i whisper your name,
i sleep with yr thoughts...
i wake up with yr dreams...
and wait for the ringing of the phone...
im thinking of u ..
all the while
whn im cooking, eating ,playing or reading....
i cease to be me....
as i become u ....
slowly,
i lose my identity...
as i longer exist alone..
but in you
as you
for u!

4 laws of creation...

i heard this and was impressed...
i wanted to share.
do check it out..

completeness in the presence...

They lay there in the halflight,
Her head resting on his chest.
As she turns slowly, towards him,
her breasts,
brush against his sides,
And,his whole being trembles.

Now, her head is in the crook of his shoulders,
Her hair spread all serpent-like,
Her eyes closed in contentment,
Her hands thrown carelessly on his stomach,
Her leg over his legs,
She can hear his heartbeat,
The echo of his love,
The breath of his spirit.
She feels complete.

In the silence,
She repeats his name.
Its in rhythm with his heartbeat,
which calls out her name…

Many times it happens that people find themselves lonely and disturbed.
and then, they meet a presentable person who gives them some attention,
they fall ...not in love but in the concept of love...they think that they have met their soulmate..
they compromise on values..they go out of their way, to make themselves available,at all times...
They put the other person first....
and then it happens!!...
the other person thinks that they have got a slave..
the misbehavior and tantrums begin...
the abuse may not be physical, but the mental abuse is worst...the fights and hurting words for no reason... knowing very well that that some people are submissive when in love..
anyway...,its true.. the person that loves the least controls the relationship...
I personally feel that some people dont know the meaning of love... they are confused.. they can think only with their PENIS...they maybe intelligent academically, but emotionally their I.Q. IS LESS THAN ZERO....and nobody can teach you that...they are the people with huge number of failed love relationships...The Emotionally Unavailable man!

KFC

Today had dinner at KFC....
I LIKE ZINGER CHICKEN...
after a long time....

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