the past, the present and the future...

The year 2010 has almost come to an end.
the year ... as humans count it has ended...
but our struggle as human beings never ends...
life is a constant struggle... and is never ending.....
I want to find happiness in what ever I am doing....
but I seem to have come to  a crossroad..
I need to chose the path I need to follow...
the path that will make me whole...
the path that will make me content...
where is that path?
is it the path of never ending struggle???
oh,, I dont know...

again?

why do i feel so lost,
why is it that i feel so alone?
where has all the excitement gone?
where is the desire to live and love?
my heart is torn into two.....one part is here and one is there....
can one live half-heartedly?
i yearn for your voice...
for your touch...
can u see me in yr minds eye?
can u see the joy and glow on my face, as i lived with you , in you?
the completeness of our souls  as we sang songs, danced and laughed deeply?
dont u want it to happen again and again?

henna...

The fading henna on my hands and feet,
 tells me a touching  story....
 the story of a wonderful world...
 a world full of love and emotion..
 a world of acceptance and innocence
 where happiness and contentment rules....
a place full of sunflowers  
a place where my soulmate resides
a place where I left my heart behind...

the untrodden path....

My Soul....

I feel lonely without YOU

I need you to be close to me...

I need your arms around me...

I need your presence....

The silence that we shared...

The deep conversations...

I miss everything

I miss you

I know its a difficult situation...

a difficult decision..

but we need to make it....

I want to come to you completely...

will  you  let me be with you...

forever????

the realisation

I'm visiting this place after a long time......
I  was not writing as I was experiencing.......
I was taking it all in...
I was silent ... I was living... I was inside myself...
I was trying to figure out myself....my emotions and why I do the things I do.....
I figured, I realised... I need to do things my way..............
my needs are few... but i need to have it fulfilled....
and I can do it by myself.....
hmmm..........
the silence teaches you tolerance,  it teaches you the meaning of this life....
it teaches you patience....
it teaches that you are as important as the other person....all human beings have same emotions..... all get hungry and angry we all feel  love, and need security and recognition.....
no one is more important than the other.....
all are equal ... differences are in the mind of the people.....

you and me...

There were so many  many people..in this world...
Why did we connect?
What was the need for us to meet...
Everything in this world happens for a reason...
Our meeting so full of serendipity..
so much confusion,
so many doubts,
so many complexes,
I wonder... why?
why? why?

the waiting..for my soul....my friend..

Life is a journey.............and its the realisation  that matters...
we go through so much in this life,
just to be in peace and happy within our selves..
I long for that...
your arms around me,
your eyes looking at me tenderly,
your kind voice in my ear,
you, touching my hair,
you, loving me with your soul..
the basic feelings of being truly in bliss
not just physically but inside your head, heart...
YOU  just know that this is it!
There is nothing more to life than being with one another...
each one gives the other strength to go on....with life..!