I am Buddha.

My quest to find Life leads me,
my search for a voice leads me,
my struggle to bloom,
to flower,
to live,
leads me to you,
I try,
I fail,
noises, voiceless silences, meaningless chatter ,engulf me.
I try again,like the spider of King Bruce.
I know I will succeed,
I need to succeed
I need to find me
I need to share me
I need to speak
I need to breathe
I know I will find you ,
Oh Buddha! Sweet Realization!
I am  Buddha, me and you , us.
How, How can I not?

Moonlight.

I  lay still, silent, on the bed of sand,

 listening to the sea singing a quite lullaby. 

The silvery moonlight caresses my  shivering stretching body.  
I feel like a mermaid an ethereal creature, waiting, waiting  to be found.

How long can I hide,how long can I deny,the explosion of emotions, intensity of thoughts, wild desires,
Oh! I no longer want to be a mermaid half fish, half woman, bathed in moonlight helpless!

I scream in my  head,

silent screams.
Please listen!
I plead!
It's time!
My life!
Come!

fears and tears

In the stillness of the orange sunset,
I wait, wait for,
a glimpse of  your face,
the sound of your voice,
a few loving words.
Patiently,and alone I wait.
I am not lonely,
I have your memories,
I know your pain,
your reluctance,
your fears.
But do you value my tears?

Been Away for a long time...
lived, laughed, cried and came back..

Know me a little more...my sky...

As dusk falls,
The sea is getting wild,
The sky wants to kiss it ,
But, no chance!
So far, yet so near.. can  u feel me?
My spirit, feels your breath,
Your imagined touch makes me quiver..
The waves of desire flows in my blood..
The sands of time will bring us close again,
I live in hope, on  an island of love!

without a boss we worked hard!

The last couple of weeks were really good.
My boss, was on leave!
I must say, that we worked hard and sincerely.
I discovered that when my boss is present, we procrastinate.We are lethargic and do not like to work.
Managing human resource is a big challenge and cannot be done without help and training.

The one meeting wonder

Most men are looking for Free Sex.
Of course I know this! But each time ,  a man tries this with me I feel like so sad.
Last week,  I went to a club with friends.
There I met a man , introduced by my friends. A well known writer.
He seemed a mature and wonderful person , older and sensitive.
We had a good conversation about books ,music, life, philosophy.
He took my number.
Next day he invited me for dinner.
I went, and the first thing he said was "lets go to my hotel room!"
I was shocked, and so disappointed.
I didn't know him, nothing about him, I thought dinner would be a process of knowing more about each other....  but for him, it was just a way to get a woman into bed.. all the charm ... just to sleep with a woman....what a waste...
The meeting, potential  association, everything ,ended with the first sentence.
I said sorry I need to go home.
Don`t people believe in friendships any more?
Is sex everything? Shame!

Happy Valentines!

My Soul! You seem afar, as I gaze at you through the windows of my eyes,
And as I sit in quiet meditation of you, my Beloved, I see  and feel you and only you!

My heart seems to have found its way into yours, My Lord!
And having found its true place is quivering in delight!

For me, My Love! you are my only hope, 
And with you in my heart, I can spend my  entire life in peace!

I live with you in me and wish to die with your name on my lips
And my world is in you and in you  is my world! My Lord!

My Soul! I dream of us day and night,
And hope that each of our dreams may come true!

All my waking moments are spent in thinking about you,My Soul!
And I feel your  fragrance and   presence in  my sleep!

My lord! my only fear is for our innocent and pure love, 
And that it may reach its zenith , without any more pain and betrayals from this world!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pYHMNkuQisU

A man who came to conduct a workshop

Today a man came to conduct a workshop at our workplace.
He was an example of how a person conducting a workshop should NOT  be.
1. He wanted to control every action of everyone.
2. shouted at people when they came late after break.
3. was sarcastic.
4. insulted the audience.
5. told  the audience that he was aggressive because he was fearful.
6. craked stupid jokes
7. used some sayings and old wives tales as examples.
8. was egoistic
9. took up more time, saying that some people came back late from break, so as a punishment he would take up more time.
In the end, everyone was happy,  when the session, ended,  everyone gave a huge sigh of relief!
whew!

An American lady in Mumbai

Yesterday I  went for the Kala Ghoda festival in Mumbai.
It was wonderful. The energy, the people, the colour, the creativity.
Everything was great.  My German friends ( who were visiting Mumbai) had come  to experience the festival.

With them was an American lady. In the beginning everything was great the conversation was good, she was telling me about her travels in India etc.
Since she was travelling alone, I was even contemplating  travelling with her to Ladakh.
Then we decided to go for dinner.

I love the Shalimar hotel at Bhendi Bazar. The food is amazing and it is a friendly place. I had taken my German friends earlier there so they too agreed to go there.
http://www.cnngo.com/mumbai/eat/boys-night-mumbais-best-biryani-takeout-list-721428 
As soon as we reached the place the American woman started ordering the waiters to switch off the A.C. ( most eaters were there because of the A.C) which I thought was very rude.
We agreed that we would share the food . I like spicy food but when I go out with people who cannot tolerate spices, I usually  adjust with what  they are eating. So we ordered ,
1. Chicken ( kaju)-non spicy
2. Tandoori chicken
3. Pepper salt lamb ( which was actually goat, I think)
4. Rice and 3 rotis
5 Vegetable salad.

I was really amazed how a person can be so inconsiderate .
She took most of the Tandoori Chicken that we had ordered and kept it on her plate. ( was she so hungry?) There were just some bones left for the others. Complained about no lettuce  in the salad. Was rude to the waiters again.
 Bitched about Indians with me sitting there.
And the last straw!
When the bill came we( the Germans and me )  decided to chip in and share the bill as always. The bill was Rs. 830 .
The American especially asked me if I was okay with chipping in!
How typical of her to think that, me being  Indian, was out for a free meal!
How ignorant of her!
Thank God she didnt ask me if I went to school!
Later after she left, the Germans and me, we sighed with relief!

 I thought that, how can you  be  a traveller if you cant enjoy the journey. 
At the altar of individualism,empathy is sacrificed.

Profound words!

Yesterday  I went to my retired colleagues home.
 If my mother would have  been  alive, she would have been her age. I have always felt a warm love and affection for his unassuming woman.
Very traditional in her appearance but extremely intelligent in her approach to life.
As I was chatting with her after lunch ( she had prepared a lovely lunch for me) she told me very sternly.." You know what? You have to learn to Live! "
I did not speak for a long time after that. Learn to live ! Yes that intelligent approach again.
Intelligence is after all, about the way you cope with life situations and  what you learn in the process is life!
She also told me one very important thing." What is this life? Hey, its all a big drama. Just live!"
Profound!

Today Day 1 Feb 1 2012

Starting Today ,I  have decided to give myself 15 minutes  of silence  in the morning.
Today morning I sat silently and spoke  the  following words,
I forgive everyone who was mean to me and rejected me. I thank them for coming into my life as I now perceive my self as a strong spiritual being who could not have reached this state of awakening if not for them. I also forgive myself. I have the right to be happy , and to be in bliss.  I must live in bliss. I must live in awareness.
After giving thanks to  the universe, I feel better.
Today was an awesome day.
Silence helps!

being in the now.

Im reading Eckhart Tolle and also listening to his audio tapes and his talks with Oprah.
He speaks about  the importance of living in the Now
I already knew it in my heart..
I  love silences and love to be still and silent for long times.
I am happy with myself.
but there are times when I crave to speak to someone., who understand me.
I  long for  heart to heart  conversations
I long to share my innermost thoughts. I know that it doesn't matter,its not important.
But then why this need?

Theodore `s Mama

I don't know Theodore`s Mama`s name,
because I never asked her!
But I did dream about her yesterday,
I dreamt of  her lovely rooms,
and her small garden full of herbs!
She fed me every  day that I was with her,
with chapathi- bread and sun-dried  Onion chutney!
She made wonderful coffee and generously shared it with me every afternoon!
She kept her home clean and organised,
dusting, mopping and wiping all the time!
She recycled everything from plastic bags, to oil cans, to charcoal, to water,  to food!
She was an environmentalist!
She always had something to give the poor kids that came to her door!
Some people you  can never forget, though you may never meet  them again!
But you love them and cherish their memory and bless them with your heart and wish them happiness always!

Happy new year

I was absent from this blog for more than a month....

Now I  come with a new thought...

I need to be more focused about myself.... I need to be selfish......

inspiring movie--the bucket list.

When I saw the  Bucket List , I loved MORGAN  FREEMAN`S  character.
I like the 2 questions.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2fHdsI7H8EE
It inspires me to live a life of joy and peace. To be a good person and live life fully without any regrets.
As we live on , we are also dying..... everyday we are dying......there is an end to our life ..that is the truth.
Meanwhile, we need to live our best life!

RING OUT THE OLD, RING IN THE NEW- Tennyson

Ring out the old, ring in the new,
Ring, happy bells, across the snow;
The year is going, let him go;
Ring out the false, ring in the true.

Ring in the valiant man and free,
The larger heart, the kindlier hand;
Ring out the darkness of the land,
Ring in the Christ that is to be.

CRAZY SONG....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GT0V_vcd_ME&feature=related

Most  idiotic song ever on Bollywood !

Importance Of Close Relationships- A Study.

What benefits do people get from having a close, healthy relationship?


For starters, being in a romantic relationship provides many physical benefits – individuals in close relationships live longer and enjoy better health outcomes than people who lack such relationship.


This gain is undoubtedly due to the fact that people in close relationships have a built-in emotional and physical support system – someone to care for them and provide comfort in times of need. Not only do people in close relationships live longer, but they report being happier and more satisfied with life than individuals who fail to find a  loving companion

Second, having a romantic relationship provides many resource benefits. Sharing resources with another person is a great way to get ahead in life. Two people working together can live better than one. When you have someone close to share and trade resources with, you come out ahead.


Third, people in romantic relationships receive more social support; that is, having someone who is attentive to your needs and concerns. Having social support translates into many other beneficial outcomes. People who know that someone supports them make better decisions in life with less stress and anxiety.


Fourth, having a companion often makes life more enjoyable. Having someone with whom to share life’s little things, like walking the dog, watching TV, eating meals is important; it enriches the experience itself and people report having a higher overall quality of life when they have someone to share it with.


Fifth, relationships are useful because partners monitor each other’s potentially destructive behavior and make attempts to stop each other from doing things that may be harmful. For example, individuals in close relationships often try to get their romantic partners to quit smoking, drink less, curb their drug use and so on.


Finally, people in romantic relationships have sex more often than single people do. Having sex on a regular basis is important for one’s well-being.

All told, romantic relationships provide enormous benefits to people lucky enough to find someone to love and someone who loves them in return.

 courtesy...www.truthaboutdeception.com

styles of love...i am agape.. what are u??

http://www.truthaboutdeception.com/relationship-issues/love-styles.html