a woman...

There is a woman who has inside her a FIRE.
to connect, without any expectations to another human being.
to give her ALL, without having to measure the amount of gives and takes.
to be able to make her world beautiful.

FIRE burns and destroys .... it also gives light and energy.
the woman thinks her FIRE is energy- giving
but life teaches her that her FIRE is self destroying.

Now, what should she do?
should she abandon her dream and continue living like a corpse?
should she take her dream and fly away?
this question has always been bothering her... shes asked herself a number of times....
why is she living???a life of farce, a lie? for society ? for what?
what is the use of living, if her soul is dead?
her spirit is broken?
there is no prosthetic for an injured soul is there?

My news...

I was 55 kgs. and now Im 63kgs.... so Ive put on 8 kgs. My ideal weight is 52 kgs. So im 11 kgs over weight.
I never much bothered about it...
but, now I feel I should make an effort...and do something about it...
from Monday, I will be gymming.
I used to gym but I left it after a bad experience.
but now Im going to be brave and start again....
I will achieve my ideal wt.
Ive given my self, three months....
Im determined and dedicated.
My friends!!!!! please help me... support me...
I know, Im a beautiful person inside,
now I want to be beautiful outside too...............

INTENSITY!!!

I'm sensitive, BUT more than that .... I'm intense....

There is intensity in everything I do....

I give my 100%....Ive to be completely into things.....

I don't do things in half measure, it has to be all or nothing....

I know people are afraid of intensity ... they feel crowded and bothered with so much of intense feelings..

but there is only one thing I say to them

TAKE ME OR LEAVE ME!!!

yesterday was yesterday and today is today...

yes... yesterday was a blissful day...
and today was sad, the tears came and stung my eyes....
why am i so insecure?
why do i need to be in connection?
I realize that its not easy for me to be so close and then so far removed...( whatsoever the reason may be)

is something wrong with me???
am i going crazy????
maybe its not very PRACTICAL to follow your heart....

THE MAGIK...

I believed in love and hope....
but never, never dreamed that it would happen to me...

its synchronicity...yes it is...
otherwise, how could have WE met?

Two lonely, bored human beings
waiting for something to happen....

Made complete by
a magic number

...lol...

why it is not important to get married.

Its not important to get married...
basically human beings are not wired to be tied down...
human beings are born free.. free to roam the earth.... to travel, to discover, to LIVE...
and 99% of the time when people marry they forget to live... they do what everybody else is doing...there are things that HAVE to be done.... you do it for a while .. and then the yearning begins....
to break free..to connect to your soul... to discover your true self... to understand what life is all about...
why exactly are we on this planet??? is it to only to get married and have children of your own?..and do the things that society asks us to do? cant we make our rules????
according to me we are on this planet to be happy... to be in bliss ....to live life without fear......
I would love to adopt at least 6 kids... orphans, troubled kids, abused kids... would love to give deprived kids a future.....and it would be great to have a partner to share the joys of life and living...
BTW.. TODAY I WAS IN BLISS..I WAS SO HAPPY.... SO HAPPY....SO HAPPY......

REVIVE THE EMBERS

There are complexities in relationships.....
Of course there are!!!!!!!!!
I think every human being loves the rush of a new meeting, a new friendship and a new relationship.
One makes so many efforts in the start, invests so much - time, energy , emotions, money.
and when they feel secure in the relationship, what do they do?
They withdraw all that they have invested...they have no time, no energy , emotions become deflated and they start to think that money is not to be wasted eg. on flowers, gifts, fine dining, wine etc.
The result:-relationship becomes boring...it becomes routine...there is no thrill...its like old furniture that we see everyday and think of discarding, but then again since its lying there quiet and serves the purpose we keep it.
Maybe we are lazy to discard and get a new one, maybe its become a habit...
its so difficult to unlearn old habits and relearn new ones... it takes effort....

SO WHAT IS THE SOLUTION...HOW TO KEEP THE FIRE ALIVE ???????