Tuesday 21 July 2009

its 4 months

Its exactly four months since I wrote something..
I was so busy doing seemingly important things that I forgot to connect to my soul.....
if I had, I would not have felt this way....
this heart wrenching despair and distress this need to cry... cry loudly...SCREAM!
this feeling of helplessness...
the truth is that it is not the first time..
it has happened before..
I recall a statement made by Oprah Winfrey ( she makes the most profound statements effortlessly
`Life goes on teaching you, till you rectify your mistakes`
so what I am feeling right now is also a reminder for me....to realize that Ive not learned...
not learned that human beings have yet to find the meaning of the word unconditional....
at this point of time Ive not been able to appreciate what I have...the material comforts as well as the success that Ive achieved through sheer hard work....
I realize that I get affected by cruel words and deeds....
if I feel love for someone....unconditional love. A LOVE WITHOUT ANY EXPECTATIONS ....its looked upon with suspicion....
doesn't every one want to be loved and understood? then why this fear?
why? why????