Friday, 24 September 2010

passive aggressive...

we know many passive people, and we know many aggressive people..
but I realise that many people are a combination of both and its a MAJOR PERSONALITY DISORDER!
they sugar coat their hostility and never show their true feelings..they trust no one...
and are mostly vindictive....

Monday, 6 September 2010

thinking aloud....

I truly believe that my fear to meet people head-on is decreasing.
I think everyone hates confrontation, i mean, who wants to bring out all the dirty linen?
I usually get intimidated easily, i cow down so that there can be peace.
anybody can shout me out...
I cant shout back.
I argue for some time,but then, i give up ..
I don't go through with most of my dreams.
I feel I may fail.
my argument is that , what difference does it  make?
if I do something or not? does it make a difference?
I really don't know?
I really need SUPPORT for everything...
why have I lost the faith in myself?
WHO did this to me?
I know I have pull myself together. Ive to stop reacting and STOP thinking what will people think..( it sounds so childish when I wrote that down?) am I really so foolish?
I have to find my boat...

Sunday, 5 September 2010


Today, I read the article about Stephen Hawking, saying that there is no GOD..
According to him ,its Physics that created the universe.

I was wondering about beliefs...
Can beliefs be limiting?
Can what you believe in make your life limiting?

After a lot of thought I  realised that it does.

My belief in sin , in punishment, rewards and other IDEAS,pertaining to religion   that I  have  been conditioned and exposed to from childhood, plays a very important role in my life.

I'm trying my best, to RELEARN and  accept  new ideas  and UNLEARN the conditioning, that has made me the person I am.
I know very well, humans have various emotions and feelings and that makes them so unique.
I know I cant be mean and harm anybody...but I know that I have to preserve myself , Ive to take care of my well being( nobody will do it for me!)
and I  have to survive and enjoy this journey... my life.. till the end.....

Wednesday, 1 September 2010


To feel anxious, is the most difficult malady!