Wednesday 31 March 2010

so difficult but so easy...


What seems difficult becomes so easy,
we fear death but when it comes...
its so easy
Its the most releasing action
EVER
The most calming...
The sweet slumber of a million dreams
Never to worry , no anxiety,
It delivers us into a womb of another kind...
what seems so far away is ulitmately so near...
Human beings are so frail....so tender... so fragile...
Death can claim us any time... anywhere....
and yet we feel that it is difficult....
but its so EASY...
That is Life...

Tuesday 30 March 2010

BUT I DONT HATE YOU


I hate the day I met you...
I hate the day I loved you
I hate the day U kissed me
I hate the day U whispered 'I LOVE YOU'
I hate the day I held your hand
I hate the day I made u mine
I hate the day U found another one
I hate the day U dumped me!
BUT I DONT HATE YOU.......

Monday 29 March 2010

does it offend your sensibilities?




Somehow I find this image very poignant and strong....the ultimate answer to all that can try and break a woman`s SPIRIT AND SOUL.....

AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF A spiritually INCORRECT MYSTC-OSHO


This book has been with me for a long time....I bought it from the OSHO ASHRAM at Koregoan Park Pune....( its opposite to the German Bakery where a bomb was planted by a terrorist).
Any way I started rereading the book and I found some profound statements that can be made only by Osho.


"You are being taught from the very childhood not to be yourself, but the way it is said is very clever, cunning. They say, 'You have to become like Krishna, like Buddha,' and they paint Buddha and Krishna in such a way that a great desire arises in you to be a Buddha, to be a Jesus, to be a Krishna. This desire is the root cause of your misery...Try to understand the point. If it is against your will, even in paradise you will be in hell. But following your natural course of being, even in hell you will be in paradise. Paradise is where your real being flowers. Hell is where you are crushed and something else is imposed on you"

1. Never obey anyone's command unless it is coming from within you also.
2. There is no God other than life itself.
3. Truth is within you, do not search for it elsewhere.
4. Love is prayer.
5. To become a nothingness is the door to truth.
6. Nothingness itself is the means, the goal and attainment.
7. Life is now and here. Live wakefully.
8. Do not swim – float.
9. Die each moment so that you can be new each moment.
10.Do not search. That which is, is. Stop and see.

Sunday 28 March 2010

I WANT PEACE

Remove the "I"
Remove the "WANT"
You will get PEACE


same goes for

I WANT LOVE.....

Saturday 27 March 2010

passion - cooking


i wanted to cook chicken muglai for a long time, but was afraid that i may not be able to make it perfectly...
but yesterday i decided that if i dont try i wont know...
so....i made it and it was awesome.....for a first time...
the recipe i followed....

Ingredients:
1 whole chicken (about 1 kg)
1/4 cup oil
2 onions, sliced
1 tbsp chopped ginger
2 tbsp chopped garlic
6-8 dry red chillies
1 tsp tumeric powder
1 1/4 cups curd, whisked
4 black cardamoms
6 cloves
2 inch stick cinnamon
3 bay leaves
1/2 cup cashew nuts, ground to a paste
1 lime (juice)
1 egg
1/4 cup chopped coriander leaves
Salt to taste

Method:
1. Wash and clean the chicken and cut into 8 pieces.
2. Heat the oil in a pan and lightly brown the onions.
3. Drain onions, remove from pan and grind along with the ginger, garlic, red chillies and turmeric.
4. Mix half the ground spices with the curd and rub into the chicken.
5. Heat 1 tbsp oil in a pan and add the whole spices and bay leaves. Fry for a minute and pour this over the chicken.
6. Heat the remaining oil and add the remaining ground spices. Fry until the oil floats on top.
7. Add the chicken and fry for 5-7 minutes until dry.
8. Pour in 1 cup water and cook until the chicken is tender.
9. Mix in cashew nut paste, stir once and remove from the heat.
10. Add lime juice and beaten egg and stir well until the egg coagulates and disperses in the gravy.
11. Garnish with the coriander leaves and serve hot with tandoori rotis.

Thursday 25 March 2010

Im Strong....

yeah!!!!!!
I am strong...
I thought I was weak...
but I realise that I can undergo....
Ive strength of character ..
Ive integrity...
Im emotional..
Im intense
Im sensitive....
but mostly Im happy I have a beautiful heart...
that has hurt no one...
Im proud of ME....
NO ONE CAN MESS WITH ME UNTIL I GIVE THEM PERMISSION.......


Tuesday 23 March 2010

dump...


We are human beings!!!!!!!
Are we to be dumped like Garbage?

Monday 22 March 2010

:-(

It's funny how someone you trust the most
becomes one whom you trust the least!!!

Friday 19 March 2010

11 ways how to make someone lose respect for you....

1. Behave as if you know Everything and you are always right.


2. Lie about your Emotions.

3. Care only about your needs.

4. Use, Manipulate, Exploit people for your needs in terms of emotions, money, time etc.

5. Don't value others feelings.

6. Runaway from confrontation.

7.Argue for the sake of arguing

8. Make Lust and not love the basis of your feelings.

9.You dont know the meaning of commitment and faithfulness.

10. Block people when you dont want to talk to them and escape.

11. Shut people from your life when they no longer can serve you....

oh ..oh.. oh..

I love drama and romance...


I loved this Montage....WATCH IT AND ENJOY!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Msa_UIh_w_Q

Wednesday 17 March 2010

ALL FOR A REASON.....

Im really really Happy today....

I was wondering if my decision was right....because I was in so hurt these past days...

But everything happens for a reason.... all the things that happen in life makes you strong and independent.

Today I got a call from the President of our Institution.. He is an extremely powerful , intelligent, generous, kind, wealthy , Ivy League man .
I was really surprised that he would call me ...
But when he spoke to me it was like he knew everything about me....
He asked me about my work with the NGO...
He was very interested to know how I did my work and the extent of my knowledge.
He really quizzed me about a lot of things....
Now the wonderful wonderful part.....
HE WANTS ME TO CO-ORDINATE A FORUM IN MUMBAI .......( WOW!!!!!)


Im so flabbergasted......
I mean, ME??????!!!!!
Its a huge responsibility.......
I don't know if I am ready for this... but I guess the authorities feel I can do it.. They trust me...
I cant explain how much this means to me.....
it is a validation of my sincerity and hard work....
when one door closes.. another one opens...
at this point of my life I needed this ...this opens a lot of opportunities for me... in terms of the kind of work I want to do......
THANK GOD! I AM SAVED..................

Tuesday 16 March 2010

a pact signed...

I was thinking that I should do something worthwhile, with my dead body.
After death , what is the use of having a monument or a tomb.Its useless.
I decided that I will donate my body to a hospital.
I may be of some use to the students who are learning medicine.
While I was researching this, I found that not many people want to donate their bodies for some larger good.
I have signed the necessary papers for this purpose, and I feel so free and relieved.
My best friend has the papers.....
Nobody has to worry about what to do when I die... no rituals.. nothing.. the hospital can experiment with me.....ha!


A million words would not bring u back...
i know cause ive tried...
and a million tears wouldnt either...
i know because ive cried
--Anonymous--

Sunday 14 March 2010

eyes are the windows of the soul.....

There are moments
I am reminded, bitterly and completely,
that I love you
i slap patches of other men to my skin, it's not the same
but it helps keep me at least twelve steps away
from my vicious addiction to you
and as with any bad habit,
the very passion between us
turned to poison and

you couldn't stop and Icouldn't stop you,
you couldn't stop even when I begged you to,
your unrelenting fervor tore me right in two
and now parts of me will always be
stained in the color of you

[anon]

Saturday 13 March 2010

Remember me and my LOVE!

I know My self....
Im thankful for everything....
Im thankful that I could love deeply and could remain committed
I am thankful to you....

You are perfect and I am perfect.....
WE WERE PERFECT.......WE ARE PERFECT AND WE WILL BE PERFECT ALWAYS......



Friday 12 March 2010

Thoughts about dying and other things....

Feeling hopeless and useless....
cornered on all sides,
Im tempted to end it all...
Just write a suicide note and
jump under a running train...
will I know the physical pain?
Im sure it will be less than the mental pain right now....

Thursday 11 March 2010

my kids....forever...!

The last day... a memorable one for me.The excitement of the kids to be photographed was so heart-wrenching.....my heart was in turmoil.....BUT the kids made me smile.....
they knew I had to go....I was the adult who had gone there to help them but they taught me to be strong....To smile through the tears.....

The girls.... I loved them .....you can see only two of them here....both loved to dress up...most of the jewellery that they have worn,we bought from the local market...they had never visited the market... nobody had taken them....the excitement at being to the market....I wished I was a kid again.....

Mumbai....

Before I go to sleep today , Ive to write down my thoughts....
I love my country .. a country with so many diversities....
It has given me Everything....

Freedom, Education, Opportunities and Experiences...
whatever I am its because of this freedom of expression....

Im a Human Being hence I cry , I weep , I become afraid...I feel betrayed...I get hurt...I LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY....

but basically the morals and values instilled in me saves me...

I survive..I live...I forgive....I can go on....even if my Heart is broken....
My Spirit never breaks....

I ENDURE...

I learned so much about life...
Im sure I can do lots of good work...
My life can have meaning..
Im a proud woman....

I have the blue skies above me and the beautiful brown soil beneath me..

I CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY....AND TO TRUST NATURE AND TIME....

QUE SERA SERA...

AMOR VINCIT OMNIA....

CARPE DIEM..!

Tuesday 9 March 2010

when?

When will I laugh ?
When will I be myself?

Why are all my dreams broken?
Why did you leave me?

What is wrong with me?
What did you want from me?

Will I be able to forget you?
Will I be complete again?

My baby! My heart!
I just needed some love,
My love is pure,
cant u see?

WHEN DID I HURT YOU??? DID I?
TELL ME....
TALK TO ME.....



Friday 5 March 2010

why I appreciate hookers and men who go to them...


Hookers sell sex and men who go to them, are the buyers.
I appreciate them because they do a great service to all women who do not earn their living
by selling sex.
The men have the guts to go and buy something that is every man`s need.
they have the guts to shell out money for their need....no nonsense.... JUST give and take.....

and then, there is another kind....another kind.....of spineless men...

they lie, they promise, they pretend, they will do anything to get into the woman`s pants....
and love the chase, they create a fantasy for both themselves and the woman....
and as soon as they ejaculate, as soon as the sperms are out of the penis.....they forget everything...
the promises, the pretension ... goes down the drain with the unused sperms.....
the ridiculousness of it all...........ha!